the road ahead

If you do not know me yet, hi I'm Grace! Three words I would use to describe myself are overachiever, hard worker, and perfectionist. I have always loved to dream big. Growing up, I would always dream of having such big and fancy jobs when I was older: President, a talk show host, a CEO... you name it. I was always dreaming big. I wanted to be the best version of myself that I could be. When I was younger, I was always thinking ahead. I would constantly be thinking of ways to grow business wise and make money. Whether that be doing extra chores around the house, or babysitting in my neighborhood. I was working hard, no matter what! I was seeking approval from everyone through my success. I loved the feeling of someone being proud of me. It made me so happy and proud of myself. I felt like the best version of myself.

Fast forward to high school, I had three different jobs. I was a supervisor at my local baseball facility, a babysitter, and I also would watch people's pets. I also had many different hobbies and school involvement to keep up with as well. I was exhausted with overbooking myself, however I loved being busy. I thrived off a full schedule.

When the covid outbreak hit, everything shut down. My jobs, school, everything. I was itching to get a busy schedule again. I was upset that I was not succeeding in business with work or babysitting, or achieving academic wise in school. Over this long break, I would say that I learned a few thing about myself. I found that I love being outdoors. I love self care night. I just overall discovered that it is important to give yourself a break and just rest.

One of my favorite artists is Olivia Rodrigo. One of the lyrics from her new album are:

"you've got your whole life ahead of you, you're only nineteen."

This lyric resonated with me really well. Sometimes, I need that reminder for myself that I am only 21 and I do not need to have achieved all of my life goals yet. I need that reminder that it is okay to feel a little bit lost every now and then. It is okay to take that break from the world and just be with yourself.

You are not behind in life. I want a family, a significant other, a house, a career, and more. The best years of my life will be when I create the life I desire. It is okay that I haven't had a a boyfriend yet. It is okay that I am unsure about where I want to be after college.

When you catch yourself stressing and worrying about every little detail in your life and not having these things under control and figured out, remind yourself that you do not have to know everything right now. You are only "nineteen." There is still plenty of time for you to reach your goals and dreams.

Remember to always give yourself grace and remind yourself that you have your whole life ahead of you!